Today at my weekly weigh in I hit my all time high. I am now 210.8 pounds. I am so disappointed in myself. I did this to myself. No one else has done it but me. I have a decision to make now don’t I? I’ve made so many promises to myself and haven’t kept them. What should I do? Reasonable answer would be do something different than you have been doing.
I don’t eat that much food, the nutrient rich stuff. Trish commented today during the meeting that we should be eating nutrient dense food which will fuel our bodies and is supposed to help stave off cravings. Or maybe Cheryl said that part. I need to eat real food, I need to start cooking from scratch more and I need to move. The inspiration I read at last week’s meeting was on a gentleman who watched his portions some but walked every day. He lost 92 pounds over the course of a couple of years. I am afraid that this won’t work for me but what else have I got?
I am really, really ashamed. I am really, really disappointed and I am really afraid I won’t conquer this weight problem. However, I am still here so I must want to continue on. Chris pointed out in the meeting that what we choose to do is a big part of the battle in anything we do in life. She is so right. When I was pregnant with Rob and got gestational diabetes I chose to eat exactly like I was supposed to. When I was divorced I chose to stay in my home, to work and care for my son. When I was ready for a new husband I chose to get out there and market myself to the male dating population and after kissing a few frogs ended up with my prince charming. A really, really good man. We have had our problems but we have both chosen to love each other through it and have a really good marriage and feel safe with each other. I have chosen correctly in the past. I can chose to correctly in the future. I can.
I am going to cogitate on this for awhile.
Since first writing this post, I have walked on the treadmill every day. I am very proud of myself. I have also written down everything I have eaten, have started the one hundred pushup challenge and joined an online support group affiliated with my TOPS program. I have chosen some hershey bars and ice cream this week but I acknowledge that I have chosen them. It wasn’t mindlessly eating them. To see what other Healthy You participants are doing head over here.