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RED FLAGS June 1, 2008

Filed under: Dates to remember — alwayswithme @ 3:40 pm

I’ve had a lot of stuff going on in my head this past month I would say.  I had reached a point over the past year that I could say I was generally more happy than sad but the clouds seem to have returned.  I am unsettled; something is off.  I was reading through some blog entries of various different bloggers I have found and enjoy.  “One of them was talking about red flags–they mean something and we do no good by ignoring them.  I know this is what I’ve been doing.

RED FLAG-I say I want to lose weight (I’m talking 70 pounds!) but my actions don’t consistently follow that path.

RED FLAG-I say God is important to me but my time spent with him of late does not reflect this.

RED FLAG-I say I want to keep a neat home for my family and myself but everywhere I look there is at least one pile, one corner, one surface, one floor not reflecting that. 

RED FLAG-I say I want to stop procrastinating, stop my lazy ways, stop wasting my time (and life) but then i continue to fall right back into the same habits I say I want to stop.

All this is very frustrating for me.  It plumments my self esteem and I wonder why does my DH love me; why do I get offers to do this or that in organizations I belong to; don’t they know I am not worthy?

Clearly in evaluating this RED FLAGS I can see that if I put God first he will lead the way.  Since I’ve slipped from putting him first he is letting me wander through the desert.  I really believe that my father is waiting for me to catch up with him again.  I just need to turn around, run a bit and slip my hand into his and go where he leads me.

To God Be the Glory.  Amen.



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